Afraid of success?

So let’s have a real talk moment. 

Growing up I heard many inspirational speeches that included telling people not to fear success. At the time I was like how crazy is that!?! How can someone want something positive and be afraid of it at the same time?! That must be a problem only crazy people have. Well, I must be the craziest person on the planet because I am now in that predicament.

I am gearing up for some major opportunities in my life and I have found myself struggling with some serious fear and doubt. At some points the fear was so real I just wanted to  give up and walk away. I thank God I have enough faith and sense to know that those thoughts and feelings are nothing but the devil!! 

Over the last few days I have spent some time dissecting those negative thoughts and trying to determine where they are coming from. My conclusion: I am afraid of the unknown or the unknown that comes with success.  I have started to actively rebuke those negative thoughts in the name of Jesus!! I also saw a post on instagram that said: Decide, Commit, Succeed. So this week I decided on my goal, committed to it, and now I am going to succeed. 

I was also watching Bishop TD Jakes’ service at the Potter’s House over the internet this morning and heard Dr. Marvin Sapp preach.  One of the things he spoke about was “holler until He hears you.”  The message was about knowing when and how to cry out for Jesus to hear you and move you out of your current situation and into what He has in store for you. This spoke to me personally as I am crying out for God to make major moves in my life so I can move on to my next step. I am prayerful that God will help me as I go through these next few challenges in an attempt to take this opportunity He has placed before me. 

And you may have noticed my instagram reference earlier… well I’m new to instagram so you should follow me!!! I’m fabgirlnikki!! Find me!! 

Check ya later!